It came in an unexpected rush. Something that I never saw coming.
One son at a cross country meet.
Another at basketball practice.
My wife and the final son at the gym.
I was alone. Unexpectedly and unobligated alone. It was unnatural. I felt wrong.
Certainly, I could have done any number of chores. That also felt wrong. Sort of like pouring a fine wine down the drain.
I changed into comfy clothes. I looked around. I was still alone. A miracle.
Even the dog sensed the moment and curled up for a nap.
In the silence, I grabbed a book and read. Glorious words, as my eyes moved across the page. I felt less guilty and more at peace.
It took me a while, but I think I figured out the relaxation thing. I would give myself a B+, not bad at all. I filed away the approach. What worked for me was bound to work again, someday years from now, when I have an unexpected free moment of peace again.